It's hard for me to say anything about myself here because I no longer believe in stories and a biography is a story. Life is movement, it's never static. What I was yesterday I'm not today. And if you like what I do today what does it matter what I did yesterday? I'm supposed to write this in a way that impresses you with a list of my achievements in the music industry and promotes what a creative, entertaining personality I am and why you should buy my music. This is usually done in the third person.
I have a problem with all of that because I no longer believe in the music business. Not that I ever did but now I'm not even remotely interested in playing their game. I spent 10 years trying to "make it" and get where I thought I should be to be deemed a "success" in this world. Everybody needs to do something we are told, and since my passion was music, I wanted to be a success at that. After a lot of struggle and desperation I realised in 2007 that there is nowhere to go. This is it. Success - be it status or money - is an illusion and making it in the music business is certainly an illusion.
Music is also an illusion but at least it's a rather nice one. To me, it's also the closest thing to silence, which is the only thing that is real. Words tend to take us away from that space but music has the power to draw us closer to it. So music itself means as much to me as it ever did, perhaps even more.
I don't think of myself in terms of being a "singer/songwriter" or "musician" anymore. I just happen to write songs and if people respond to that then I'm delighted but I have no real agenda. I'm happy to let the music go wherever it goes. Money certainly comes in handy though!
So all I can really add to this is some background on my journey to this point...
|